-mm- Book working changes

Well I felt the story I was working on did use to much out of one persons eyes and so I’ll scratch this story because I rather work on something more multi characters
with different persons and more Adventure in the story like characters conversations and so on……But I’ll post the Intro that came before the first chapter and the second
chapter of the story here though if you would like to read it even though I’ll not continue this story "The Eyes Of Robin" well It just did not work for me…..as to what I said I
found it to much through one characters eyes and so the adventure of it would not become interesting enough I believe and it are more fun to write a book with multi
characters and more in the Adventure style than what "The Eyes Of Robin" could ever be…….So this why I scratch this project so I can begin with what I feel more appealing
to me to work on….But anyways here are the Intro and the second chapter of "The Eyes Of Robin"
The Eyes Of Robin



Hello to you my reader whom have came to meet my words and to read this reconstruction of all the madness in my mind through out such a long time in silence as I’m here now typing this words unto this empty pages and not even sure how to make you understand all of what will be shown to you through my words as I’m almost sure there shall be doubts in your mind as you will be taken through this crazy ride of my time here through my mind, this journey may be dark and show you things you might not really wish to see depending on your faith or whom you are as an person but by all means take this as just another story because in a way this are but another story of so many other stories you’ve read in your past but perhaps this will be a bit different from your usual read, But anyhow my name is a secret so you can call me by the sydonym I’ve choicen for myself in this story and it shall be "Robin" and I hope you like that name as much as I do, so to not keep you in a to much wondering I’ll tell you one thing directly just to get it out of the way, I am not normal in the sence of normal as in mortal and no I’m not exactly your ordinary immortal either and so what am I you may now wonder well to put it in a easy way to understand I’ll tell you that I am a part of both worlds in that my system works pretty much as any other mortal but parts of my system given by a spirit prolonging my time here on this earth that we all know as our home plus some things that would probably be namned extraordinary, magical but to me very much normal now but aw cause in the beginning when this came to me through an sad time and a very lonely night I knew very little of it and so it suprised me quite a bit then but time learn us to control and accept things but there have awcause always been questions along this road I’ve traveled and some of this questions I strongly doubt will ever be answered, so now let me take you to the first chapter and I hope you can bare with me because this story will be something of an crazy ride as I’ve told you earlier in this introduction…..

So turn the page and this story shall begin.


Chapter 2 – The Process After Death And The Shadow Of Peace

I can recall school years and to state out I only went there for nine years and I was the odd one that everyone looked down on and so through those years I closed myself off more or less toward that world and I even remember that at time I even did not know what class to go to if I even was there at all as I went as I more or less pleased and they call it a school of learning yet teachers did not care and some I think did not even see me and that my friend is the reality even today as others whom been and are in the situation I was where I’m sure an helping hand could have made those years more easy but enough of that now and let me instead tell you that in that time I learned a lot and was watching the human nature and understood some things about human nature and unto how week one soul alone where none to look at their acts, to sum up the meaning of it are that everyone are afraid of the nothingness and some rather choice evil for their own good painting themself a wall for their future where their persona no longer shine by the mask they have to wear to where forgiveness never or seldom be found when the payback show itself through the own made darkness, Now let me take you on a trip to an journey I made where I was shown the process of death and this journey started a long time ago to where I searched more than what I already knew, the process is light as you know they with near death experience say they see a tunel of light or the spiritualist whom take souls to the other side talk of the light ,the light are true but the rest are but the place of the imagination created, this light are like a sea of white light and within this sea all whom died in waiting to be reborn again but the fear for me was when I both learned and felt the disapearing of the self and that everything one learn to disapear slowly and you can compare the feeling like slowly getting under water but in this there at first are a peace you never felt before and fact are that you are numb to your own thoughts like some puppet just laying there waiting to disapear to be sent through the energy back to life through birth but this process are not 100% as some will remember previous lives later in life, I retracted from that journey and came back as somehow I broke free but I think this because my body not yet dead at that time and it took many years for me until an breakdown happened to this knowledge to know of the end and that nothing you’ve gone through have no meaning in death and so one night I think it was summer I searched the energy for answeres to try to find some other plate and I found something but it was not as I would expect a hole in the energy where no energy present and within this place a world of beings not human but older then time itself and they live there in complete darkness so I called out into their realm for help to live where death could not take me away and I gave an gift by saying be part of me and I’ll give you eyes to see the light and feeling to touch the world and taste to taste the world and in return enter me and give me part of you and your eternity and something came rushing and I was pushed through the air down on my bed while a fire went through my spine and made me finaly to black out and I did not wake up until the day after feeling stronger than ever before and a new strange flow through my mind where words came to me from within to such an agree that I begun to write poetry as an outlet of all this words passing through me and I know that this being now was within me as a part of me and to each year that have passed from that time power have grown within me and I have been able to see even more done stuff that should not be possible to do but the thing that I never thought of was that everyone and everything around me do die and through looking at friends and loved ones that have passed into the process of death while I’m left alone again and again to walk on this earth it became a huge pain to me and a fear almost in getting to close to anyone now as I know I will lose them, I have never tried doing that thing that Vampires do in the movies with taking blood and give it back to get someone to become as me someone to stay as me with me as an familiar face through time as I do not think that would work but I have been tempted to try it lately but the failure would hurt my heart so much as it means getting close to someone again and to point the way to the place I found in the shadow, that dark place where this beings live or should one call them spirits even though not human well whatever to do that means that someone would have to be able to see as I see and even if they reach it would there be another to exept the invite there and plus would it even be fare of me to make or to give them a way to become as me because time can be hard when you realize that everything you know will be gone one day and only memories to remain but in all honesty there are aw cause somethings with this that are good too as to get to learn and see things that will arise through history but your mind need to be strong with a will to the mind to survive plus know that this are not your usual Vampiric fiction that you look at at the movies, no you will have to eat and drink, work for your money and your body still works pretty normal and if you lose a tooth or get a deep wound it will not go away like magic of movies, you will die but not in many lifetimes…and how many I could not possible tell you but your face will tell the truth as the years go on and you see that your face very young against your age as you look in the mirror or an photographic picture so this means that you do have to move to different areas not to reveal yourself to the world as the world probably would place you under an looking glass if they found out that within you lay something that could make someone stay young and live for an very very long time plus that there are some very bad peoples out there that I’m sure would use you in one or another way if they found out, aw cause to an amount you can protect yourself quite well as you are stronger but if many would to take you down you probably would not be able to break free and remember you can die too because this are within you so if someone cut you up I doubt you would survive in pieces also you can get sick and even though your imune system are stronger if you would to get really sick I’m not sure what would happen as I’ve never really got that sick before and perhaps one never will being as me and know that the best thing as you will learn in time is to not get to close with other human beings because when their time come your the one hurting plus that there are not that many that you can stay around with till the end anyhow but a few of trust if so choicen but death are always the haunting of the worst kind so you will learn by time to take some distance and I mean that as in even getting to close to an idol someone you admire you know some famous person as that can hurt pretty bad too when they no longer around to make music or movies and so on but I assure you that you will see and live it all many times over but as me an familiar face can hold such comfort at least this is what I think as I’ve found that through time this are what I miss the most, someone there with me through time and I mean that obviously there may come a time where we would part but we would always know that we would be able to see each other again or even get back together many times, I think it are that familiar that hold such strong need within me but aw cause love is a wish but love would need to be strong to last for such long time but then again one could just part for years if things would fade to get together yet again many years later to find the love there again, well now I am getting way ahead of myself in all my dreams and fantasy because I’m not even sure yet if it ever be possible to get anyone to become what I am but in me some hope of this that there might be a chance to fade the solitude away with someone there, someone familiar through time.

Stefan 2009* 


2 thoughts on “-mm- Book working changes

  1. The storm have been part of my life for an very long time……..Love can also be very dangerous to the soul but in my view my hope of that key.merci Rosemary my friend’:)

  2. You seem to be tossed around in stormy waters, my friend, :Remember eyes are windows of the soul. Love is the key

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