Wish for you~

Wishing you a nice weekend

with thoughts of light

know that I’m not far away

considering the planet of things

Distance can feel like a wound

yet so easy to overcome

positive is the word

to believe in

I know there is way to much

negative freaks around you

constantly pushing your strings

I always use eh fuck em as words

You should do what is right for you

and fuck the rest

never mind them as they hold no good

for your heart and life

Live and don’t take any shit

they not worth it

follow your own heart

shut off your ears and eyes

Now was that not so very nice of me?

well you know I am whom I am

stop wasting time trying to understand

love me for whom I am as I love you

What a different thing to write hu?

for being me I’ll guess

or is it?

maybe you just do not know me

Anyhow enjoy this weekend

and yes on your question

how did you know?

was I so obvious?

~smiles~

Stefan 2024*

Thoughts*

Yes I know it is not fair

it never was

your not the first one

and shall not be the last

with those thought’s

It is as old as sin

the beginning of the end

and all the sorrow you have to carry

for an unfair God

that do not care

They’ll all die and becomes suffering

memories of whom they where

as the sickness and ageing takes it all away

believe me it is unfair

so fucking unfair

But there are no absolution even in eternity

even so much more the inner scream

suffocating inside your head

all whom gone past the line

to oblivion or rebirth

And all you ever will know is

death and nothing but death

even though in a few moments

it all may seam ok

yet it ain’t

The own trace of some heart once beating wild

those olden emotions

walking alone through time

never surrender because

it’s without a point now

Capturing moments and painful memories

because the happiness once known no more

where death took it over

and you wish to live forever?

are you really sure about that?

Yes I know your wishes, your prayers

please don’t because it is not life

if ever there where a hell

this be it my dear

just capture the moments of life

But know that I do love you

will forever love you

your precious and beautiful

and this is why I have to

decline your request

My wishes be with you with my love

whatever may remain of it

it is yours truly only yours

to keep if you wish

would never throw you into the shadows

Even though tempting

to shatter this silence

yet I know it be in regrets

either by your end

or my pain.

Stefan 2024*

Just before the days end

I’m acting out just for you

my passion over Christ

your thoughts in the dark

bleed for my blackened soul

just as I’ve bled yours

through time

My will lay not within understanding

was already dead from the start

no expectations but perhaps

a wish of something in the nothingness

my drug deep within

the soul

Another time passing by

rapid movements

blurred feelings

like memories

not what you thought

much more reflection

Was always open for such a long time

but as most things becoming locked

behind the inner door

to keep away emotion and pain

one time might come when it be

rusting away the lock

Some things should never be

yet I am poison

as the lives running within

through me

to be snapped just in the next moment

if ever allowed by my care gone

Undoing creation itself

undoing everything and everyone

blackened curse sailing on a to wild sea

kept it back since forever

yet becoming more and more

undone now

All the evil laughter to be swallowed

and perhaps it is my sin

to choice the end

before a evil God

death is following so close

in a darken symphony

Remember that it was never by my will

but if it be -no more forgiveness-

my silence shall rule supreme

as everything fall around me

down deep for your sin

eternally painfully

Speak of the devil ,you’ve embraced him

tainted your soul damned

haunting you now

bleeding you dry

swallow another night

in passion and in pain

Your question with this answer

yes and I always will

your stupid doubts

your my sin and my passion

my death

and my immortal sin.

Stefan 2024*

So it’s been awhile

Releasing the beast again unto black and white

in the circle of words so full of meaning

and yet made in the fashion of dark tainting

of your mind reflecting the soul

Yes it is all true yet am not like you at all

but perhaps in some procent perhaps

born to it you know, how about you?

nah did not think so as mostly in company of death

Yes you ask all the freaking time, WHY?

well why the hell not?

you can keep calling me wild my dear

perhaps that fit me just fine

You would never understand how long it’s been

so nothing you say or do have the slightest impact

emotions, love….yes maybe a part of me got lost there for awhile

just to find out the same old deadly sin of it’s fake heart

Never mind it and let’s move on

something I always do sweet one

as things grow mundane and boring

always the traveler in time

Try to captivate me, I’ll dare you

maybe you can where everyone else failed

though I might doubt that

as it all become the past

Once I would have gave you everything

just because I could

some whom room and some whom don’t

as it may not be the grand illusion as first thought

Let us run deep into it now shall we?

what are you now but a shell awaiting

end time and in such fear

you say you love but is it really true?

Come with me into the rabbit hole

all this time you’ve lost for what?

money? devotion?

you tell me how does it feel when there is nothing real?

Was this the thing you wanted?

I feel you would lie if you said yes

and yet again perhaps

evil draw in evil

Was that deep enough? or shall I continue?

think I’ll leave it for now like that

see I never wanted anything material

I wanted you, your soul

The painting became black

lost in a sea of hatred and despite

a heart red turned dark

for the reason of nod

Yet still it remains ,that part of you

that will be forever loved

yet so lost now by the hand

of time.

Stefan 2024*

Will keep writing my mind out.

It be fiction and reality, but this be the only thing I’ll do openly online….keep on writing from my head if someone actually care or not, I’ll be here with my mind (from time to time though when I feel like doing it)

Will not reveal anything date wise or health wise here though (Just my usual sweet darkness or light -he he he- if ever it come to mind.

Sleep be fucked for now, I’ll rot when I’ll die.

Happy now? or perhaps very sad? :p ,Look around a bit and you’ll may find me somewhere in private -winks-, The Devil is back (well somewhat anyway) -always something hu? in plus or minus -all up to your fucking mind to decide….right?

Be quiet or leave replies ,it is all up to you, This is for my pleasure the things I’ll write you know (you need not say a word if it please you) I might care or not.

Regards’

Stefan*